Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Do Anything

I would do anything to ensure my cat lives a long, happy, healthy life. I will put myself in debt (and have!), buy less for me if it means food for her, even move back in with my parents if that's what I have to do to keep a roof over her fuzzy cat head.

But, is a cardiologist really necessary? It is worth the stress on her, and the expense on me, for them to just repeat what the x-ray already confirmed ("yep, her heart is enlarged")? That's all well and good, but what can be done about it? They can't shrink it down to normal size. What good can they really do?

And on top of this, I have guilt, because I know part of my thinking is that I don't want to add to the already substantial bills and that I'm too late in getting her on an insurance plan. I'm also concerned about her stress. Going to the doctor is not an easy thing on an animal. It's bad enough that I must take her in tomorrow for more blood tests, and it's bad enough that I'm shoving disgusting medicine down her throat twice a day. But, what am I to do? I'm not an expert, I rely on people with the degrees to prove they know what they're talking about to advise me.

I would do anything. That's probably why I'm feeling so terrible about not wanting to do this.


Anonymous said...

call and speak to them first. ask them what can be done for her and why do you need to take another xray?

Anonymous said...

Don't feel guilty FyreCreek, we all go through those moments. When my Yahalo was sick, the cost was outrageous and then I was told he was going to die anyway(FIP killed him, he got it from his mom and getting neutered triggered it). I struggled allot with it, do I go ahead and put him to sleep while he still seems active and happy, or wait for this awful disease to kill him slowly and spend more money to keep him with me as long as I could. Even with money being so tight, I couldn't stand putting him to sleep while he was still active and happy. He lasted another 2 months with me before a late night run to the emergency room. I still cry thinking about him, but I know I did everything in my power to make him happy and healthy during his short time with me. Hang in there, your Miss Luna will get better and you'll have a long time with her yet. I'm thinking of you,

Fyrecreek said...

You're right, Zillah. I remember, when I worked at the animal hospital, the doctor saw a feline for a regular check up. The cat was large and fat and 17 years old. Towards the end of the exam, the doctor suddenly looked at me and said, "this cat has leukemia, and she was diagnosed as a kitten." He and the owner then explained that the doctor had recommended euthanasia, because leukemia would surly kill her and possibly get passed to the other cats in the home. The owner refused, and the cat lived 17 years and was still doing fine at the time. And all other cats in the house still tested negative.

I don't blame you for wanting to take him home because he seemed to be alright. I have seen first hand that a terminal disease does not mean they can't live with it for years. Sometimes they can, sometimes they cannot. I think you did right.

Pets can't tell us when something is wrong. We do the best we can with the knowledge we have at the time. That's all we can do.